‘Cause You Have to Do Something
Let’s talk about awkward questions. This is my favorite: “So, what are you planning on doing? You know, after school.”
Don’t get me wrong. The speaker means absolutely no offense when he asks this. He is merely enquiring as to what my life plan is past this year. Am I going to college? Am I buying a car? Will I get a job? Or get a husband?
What I love about this awkward question is that the answer is short and sweet. Three words, to be precise: “I. Don’t. Know.”
There are a lot of pressures that come along with being a teenager. I think I once heard someone the teenage years as the welcome mat to the real world. Decisions have to be made. A lot of them. Do I want to go to college? Or get a car/job/husband anytime soon? (Okay, maybe not that last one. I’m only sixteen, sheesh!)
It’s difficult for me to pin down an answer to the question, “What do you want to do with your life?” Because, honestly, I don’t know! I love to write, and take pictures, and play piano–but sometimes that doesn’t seem like enough. Like I need a college degree or an office job to make me feel secure in myself. I start to doubt the path my life is taking, and wonder if I should push myself in another direction.
And so, with much thought and prayer, I have compiled a three point list to serve as my answer to “What do you want to do with your life?” The next time someone asks me that question, I will turn to them and spew off in a robotic voice:
Number One: I want to be a godly woman.
Number Two: I want to have kids. Lots of them.
And Number Three: I want to be happy in whatever I do. No matter what that is.
That’s all I really want out of life. To be a godly woman who walks with the Lord and raises a family full of little blessings. And to love what I do, whether it’s photography or writing or something else entirely. My dad once told me that if I find something I love doing and figure out a way to make a living at it, I’ll never have to work a day in my life. Because I’ll be happy and content, whether I’m breezing through life or slaving away. Life shouldn’t be as complicated as everyone makes it out to be. I never want to pine away for a better paying job or Pulitzer prize achievement or some other “success” in this life. When I grow up, I just want to be happy and content in whatever God has given me.